This year really didn’t end like I wanted it to. I just thought that 2010 would be different. I thought I’d finally have a New Year’s kiss from someone I wasn’t related to. I didn’t even go my family’s New Year’s party because I wouldn’t have been able to get there until a half hour before midnight. I know it’s going to get better over the next few weeks. I just wish things were different right now. Besides, there’s always next year.

As far as New Years’ resolutions, I think I’m just going to continue to strive toward more positive goals contributing to a brighter future for me, my fiancée, and our hopes and dreams. The world has been struggling more than ever this past year. Ever since Breanna had to go back home, I’d realize that I’d been pretty complacent on letting the world crumble around us. While it doesn’t matter if the world falls apart all around us, it does matter that we have a plan to adapt and recollect ourselves. October wasn’t a great month for me as I spent almost all of it crying. However, last month, and this month, I’ve been really making an effort to make the healthy changes I needed and that’s made me more positive about the future. I still have a ways to go, but I’m more confident in the direction I’m heading and I know everything’s going to be alright.

I miss you, Breanna. Happy New Year, baby.